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I like my thinspo fa

Ughhh, I'm sort-of fighting with my sort-of boyfriend. And I'm starting to think that grass might be greener on the other side, even though everytime I date other guys they turn out to be complete freaks (one used to compare me to his ex, and he also had old texts from her in his phone. THEY BROKE UP LIKE A YEAR AGO. Issues or whaaaat!), or completely stingy (if you have a stash of $50 notes, why don't youuuu pay for dinner for once?).

I have the worst taste in guys. I could write a book about it. If there's a control freak/tightass/backhanded complimentor anywhere within a 10 kilometre radius, I'll probably ask for their number.

I'm considering going celibate. SERIOUSLY. Sex is usually pretty lame, I'm yet to meet a guy who can make me orgasm. And I've been stupid enough to sleep with enough guys that I can say that I've tried every type. The shy guy, the chubby guy(s), the metalhead, the indie, the cute accent, the friends ex-boyfriend, the ex-boyfriends friend, the so-much-older-it's-almost-peadophilic guy down the street, the emo, the surfie, the virgin(s), the South African, the Kiwi, the English, the Australian(s), the well-endowed and the oh-my-God-are-you-joking?!

I'm texting a virgin/almost virgin (it's a bit blase' to enquire at this fragile point as to whether he has lost his virginity yet) at this point in time. But I'm only interested in friendship. He's mostly a nice guy, from what I know, and considering I'm 18 and live in the Most Isolated Capital City In The World, there isn't much for the choosy 

looooving her bedroom

I might as well go to bed (it's only 8.46pm here), but my contact lenses are being itchy and I'm too pissed at my sort-of boyfriend and this same old annoying we do to each other

peaceloveskinnycelibacy

lol

Goooooodnight!

Keep the car running

For my entire shift at work today (nine and a half hours), I couldn't stop looking at other girls around my age's bodies. I couldn't find any with the same body shape 

I just got my measuring tape out for the first time in months. I've left it way too long, and I wish my computer hadn't crashed last year, I don't have any record of my old measurements  :[

I'm kind of afraid that I wrote them down somewhere else, and they're better than my current measurements, eeep

I took my old measurements when I was hell-bent on being a size 8 (which would actually be impossible, at least on my lower body), and shortly after that, I started hanging out with an old friend again, who became my best friend for a year.

I'm kind of worried someone I know will read this, but whatever. Her eating habits were disgusting. I grew up in a house where we eat super-healthy. HEAPS of veggies every night with dinner, we've never had frozen pizza, icecream, fruit loops, anything like that in the house. No chocolate, chips, soda, whatever. My old friends used to think it was wierd, but you know, they're fat now, and I'm pretty sure that's why 

But yeah, my ex-bestfriend ....just wow. KFC for dinner every other night. Hungry Jacks drive-thru when we weren't even hungry. We'd go get triple scoop icecream cones just coz we were bored. Drink heaps of soda with our vodka, go out for dinner every other weekend. If there was food, we'd be scoffing it.

Fucking. Disgusting.

I was so worried about turning into a fatty, and then my xanga subscriptions stopped being sent to me....

I think the only thing that saved me was always being so broke I couldn't afford all the eating out, drinking lots, so I usually just got fries or nothing.

But anyway, I recently just saw photos of her. She's probably going to have health problems later on in life, diabetes or something, which I feel bad for, but I just don't understand how you can look like that and still keep up with those kind of habits!

It's hella gross. But it inspires me, coz I could've easily ended up looking like that.

Anyway, my measurements:

Height: 170cm / 5'6, 5'7?

Waist: 73cm (I just ate dinner though) / 28.7in

Hips: 95cm / 37.4in

Bust: 88cm / 34.6in

I think that makes me a size 10-12 australian *ponders*

But whatever, I can still aim to be a big size 8, haha